The Lord's Hand...and Faith

The last few weeks have been full and crazy for me. Last Tuesday was a difficult day. Among other things, I hadn't slept the night before due to being up with Spencer and giving Dustin medications throughout the night, I burned the chicken that was supposed to be for dinner, and when I was putting Spencer's carseat in the car to go and buy some sandwiches for dinner a mouse ran out of the back of his seat and hopped out of the car. When I got home from buying our sandwiches, I found Dustin wailing and shaking in pain from his surgery. We called the doctor and the home teachers and he was given a blessing and a new medication. The medication helped, but I had to be up every two hours to give it to him. Anyway...by the time Wednesday rolled around, I was really tired. I wrote in my journal that day while I waited in the car with a sleeping Spencer for Dustin who was in physical therapy. I expressesd that it had been a difficult time, but that I knew that the Lord would sustain me and my family. I wrote about the lessons I was learning through these experiences. I came home from that physical therapy appointment to find my house had been cleaned by Deana, Maddie, and Hannah. What a sweet blessing.
I didn't write in my journal again until today--one week later. As I picked up my pen to write, I realized how happy and refreshed I felt today. I was amazed at the complete difference last Wednesday was from today. And I was reminded that the Lord did sustain me through those days...He completely sustained me. It was through angles in my family here as well as angels from heaven. I realize that other difficult periods will come that will last much longer, but I am so grateful to learn line upon line to just hold on and have faith. The sustenance will come.

I also had a small but significant insight as I read my scriptures. I read in 1 Nephi 3:31 when Laman and Lemuel said, "How is it possible that the Lord will deliver Laban into our hands? Behold, he is a mighty man, and he can command fifty, yea, even he can slay fifty; then why not us?" Their response seemed so silly...of course the Lord has more power than someone who can command 50 men. He has all power in Heaven and Earth. Then I realized that Laman and Lemuel were faithless and thus were blind. Faith is sight. Faith in the Lord gives us sight and insight that is otherwise absent. Faith in the Lord changes our perspective, our actions, our feelings, etc. I want to have more Faith so I can see more clearly.